Scared Loyal

I've been down in Florida for almost 2 weeks now. My family is doing well without me. We miss eachother and I think we've realized how much we love each other. Anyway, I've never been divorced, but I imagine this is what it is like. I'm in a small apartment-type setting and cooking for one. And I've come to the realization...this sucks! This is no damn fun at all! It's not the feeling of "freedom" that I anticipated. It's lonely and it's boring. Don't get me wrong, I'm finding things to do to keep myself entertained. But krimeny! So I'm calling this my "scared loyal" program. If I ever were to screw up my marriage so badly that Deb would leave, THIS would be the consequence.

And this is not all it's cracked up to be.